To all of my followers, and everyone else, who needs to know.
From the 6th February, 2pm German time, I´m going to be in Hospital for mental care.
I´m going to deal with all of my freakin’ problems, fears and issues.
I will be away for at least 6 weeks, and I’m sure that it will take a bit longer than that to cure my half-insanity[<-that’s a joke. I´m not that bad]. But I will be there for a fuckin’ long time. Without internet and a computer, and I won’t have too much time to go outside alone. So you won’t be seeing me for a looong time on your dashboard. I will be away, and I don’t know when exactly I’ll be back.
So I have a favor for all of my still followers and to all followers of my other blogs. I can’t force you, but please don’t unfollow me because of this. I can’t change it now, and I’m not going to. [Actually I could change it, but that would mean I had to transfer schools, because my old doesn’t think that I’ll take all of that stuff, what actually is pretty sad to me, but it seems like they don’t want any problem childs on their schoolground, so I just said “Fuck you, I’m doing this, bitches.”]
To everyone who follows my ask blogs: I’m really sorry. But I can’t change it. If you still want to support me, then just send me messages with asks, so that I can be back with full strength. To everyone who eventueally wanted to make such an askblog, and is now upset, that I took the url and stuff: I’m sorry, but you have to fuckin’ deal with it.
Actually I don’t really know what to say more. I’m frightened and I don’t know what to do, and it will be tough. I will be away from my family (what even maybe is a good thing) but I’ll also be away from my best friend (which had to argue with me just the day ago), my co-writer and my beloved girlfriend. I’m only able to see Ichi on weekends and eventually to phone her sometimes. The time I have on the phone will uprise from around 15 minuets three times a week till, I don’t actually know, but I’m sure it will be hard for me.
I never liked dealing with my fears and problems and I hope the therapy will help, because if not, then I’m sure that I lost a bunch of time and effort for simply nothing.
So I just wanted to say:
Thank you for following me so far. Thank you for all the sweet messages you left in all that time, and thanks to everyone I met here on tumblr.
I just hope I can get through this.
Thank you for everything.